Virhevara

Hey peeps.

As the title tells you I'm taking a little break to focus on my health.
When I started my treatments, my blood tests revealed quite serious dysfunction possibly on my thyroid glands. I've gained way too much weight, am cold and sluggish. Even housework takes too much out of me, so can't really get anything 'proper' work done. 

I'm waiting for results from third blood tests that's going to tell am I up for brain scan or 'just' medication. Hopefully I'll get this under control soon.

Happy New Year all and take care!

Yahallo peeps!

October has started!! Hopefully start of halloween has been good for you and you're just as pumped as I am!
This year I'll be trying to complete 'basic' Inktober, without any promps thou. Unless I need inspiration then I'll go take a peak at some lists.
This will be... Third of fourth time trying to keep my artistic motivation and self-esteem up and going daily for whole month! We will see how it will turn out.
Ah I'll try to post at least every few days at Instagram. Hopefully I will remember to put compilation here too ^^"

It has made me so happy to see how many of my friends and familiars are taking their ink out for this month. Really gets me pumped you know? And it's nice to see people possibly trying something new and getting new content daily as a follower isn't so bad~
Wishing much motivation and happy things to anyone who happens to read this and tries to overcome themself! (with -tober challenge or other ways)


Then to babbling about my private/daily life that might not be interesting at all!

Maybe the biggest thing is that I've finally taken a step forward in my trans treatments! After almost one and half of year I got green light to progress towards the treatments! Damn I'm happy
Now I just need to loose weight and wait for the first meetings with my surgeon for mastectomy and nurse/doctor for hormonal treatment. No more sweaty backs from the double binds and body dysphoria stopping me from going to gym! I can finally work towards being the sweater uncle what I've always wanted to be (aiming for Monroe in Grimm)

And my progress in getting my foot over threshold in tattoo industry is going steadily forward. Don't really have anything to toot my horn with thou (or even the horn).
Got to show my portfolio to few new places. At the other one I got to follow close up when the artist was doing the tattoo from start to finish! It was so cool and the artist was super nice occasionally explaining and giving some tips here and there. Not really sure did I talk about it here, but one person said before that my style isn't suited for tattoo business. Well this new artist totally smashed those words praising my work and how he could easily see people asking for my style being tattooed. Been meaning to go to his place and get some over-the-shoulder teaching, but he has not find the time yet. This friday is a maybe~

We applied to upcoming convention Yukicon for artistic alley with my friend. How it turned out won't be announced 'till first of November, but I'm going to work like I got table already. Gotta have something to make me finally draw 'proper' works that I even could put in my portfolio.

I have to tell you how much I've been waiting for this month!! Two anime series that I've liked very much have come back for season two! And at the end of month there's Stranger Things with new season for halloween binge watch~~ Should really start to cut back on horror movies so that there's something good to watch.

Thank you so much for reading (possibly following) and have a nice autumn!!

Is there something you're really excited for the end of the year? Are you taking part in Inktober too? How have you guys been just in general?

Hey peeps!

Just quick and short info that I'll be leaving for my annual Italy trip this Friday (28th of April)! I'll be back around mid May, but don't really know when I'll be getting any new stuff finished and uploaded. Our home isn't the most... livable, much less good environment to create, atm thanks to plumbing renovation. 

But please if you wanna see some more regular/active updating follow me or go and peak occasionally at my Instagram page! Link --> SKETCHES/DAILYLIFE <-- Link

Happy spring/start of summer for all of you! 

I'm quite speechless and more or less tried at the moment, but felt that I seriously need to tell all of you who bother to follow me and read my ramblings, about my first ever artist alley experience. 

To those who don't know about them, artist alleys are usually a section at conventions where artists sell their own productions. Be it art, jewelry or some other (usually) handcraft stuff. And last weekend at Tampere Kuplii comic convention (15-19.3) I was there.
Technically it wasn't my first time ever being behind table since I've "worked" as my friends' emotional support and extra helper at last Tracon. We shared table, but this was my first time selling MY stuff. 

Don't really remember when was the exact time I decided this idea, but I've been stressing over this for about six months! Working like I've never worked before. But there were always so many worries that weighed me down:

• What if I can't get enough done
• Don't remember anything about putting documents in printing condition
• What if they mess up the printing and I can't sell anything
• Had to make comic in two months
• I don't have enough fan art that usually sells more
• Do I have enough money to pay for expenses
• etc...

I've talked more or less about how much I lack confidence as an artist. So it might not be surprise that my biggest fear was what if not even one person deems their money is worth of the scribbles I make... And it was a legit possibility in my mind, despite how encouraging my friends where. There was no chance that my artist ego made from thin glass could take that blow. Much less find the will to mend it. I had pretty much decided that if that came to be, I would gracefully accept my defeat and try to find new path for my life. It would had hurt yes, and I've no idea what else could I possibly ever do besides art for my living without loosing myself...

To get back on the track, I had no need for those plans. This experience far exceeded my wildest expectations! Not only did I get back what I used up on printing, table and other expenses I got some extra too! One store bought five of our comics! We were so shocked when we sold even one and then they just came, flipped through it, asked which one of us made it and told it was funny. Then asked do we have price for re-sellers if she bought five or ten?! Don't think I've gotten over that yet.
But most important and valuable was the positive reactions I got. So many people took my info card even if they didn't buy anything. I'm seriously starstruck. Some were even nice enough to stop by and talk with us, even give some personal opinions what they liked most about some of my works, about fandoms or ask about inspiration/technique.

I'm so thankful to everyone with such kind heart who follow me here and/or other social websites and those who have even one kind opinion of me or my work. Don't really know how I could express my gratitude properly to every single one of you. Maybe even tell how much difference you make in my motivation and how it keeps me on believing that just maybe, somehow, someway, I can pull it off at this profession... 

I owe everyone of you more thank I have in this life time, but I'll keep working and improving so that I'll be worthy of your support someday.

Thank you all!